My Friend Tyler (this is sad...)
I'm in tears. I can't keep myself together
My friend Tyler (not my boyfriend) called me just a while ago and told me something that made me cry and fill up the whole garbage can with tissues and I just can't keep it to myself, I need to get it out of my system.
Just a week before, he happily told me he was off to Las Vagas for the week with his mom. Little did we both know one trip to the Las Vagas doctor's office would lead to something tragic that makes us both cry.
Let's rewind a bit back though.
Right when he told us that another one of my friends was joking around saying that he was going to gamble with his mom and loose all the ten bucks Tyler had. I laughed along with them, not worrying about anything that could go wrong.
Tyler is one funny kid. He can be a little nervewracking and a bit stupid sometimes but he's one of my best friends and you can't help but love your friends.
And when you find out that they have a bone disease it just tears you down and breaks your heart to bits.
Tyler said the doctor told him he's not going to make it. In three years he has to either be put down, and I hate the sound of that. I hate it. It makes him sounds like a freakin' dog.
Or he's just going to pass... naturally.
I haven't known Tyler for that long, just a few months. But a really great bond can form in just one day and that's what happened with us. I was standing alone, no one to talk to and I had no friends, which was no surprise but that's not the point.
Tyler came up to me and the first words he said to me were, "Why're you so shy?"
It amused me. Now that I think back on that moment it makes me even more sad because that was before we knew that he had any disease or that he was going to die in three years. That was before we knew that he would never be able to go to college or have a proper job or have a family or any of that. And I cannot believe that I went on these whole seven days worrying about my less important problems. I went on this whole week not giving a crap about what could happen to my friend.
I am so damn selfish.
I can't believe I was actually so excited and happy today.
I feel really guilty about feeling happy today.
Alright. I'm still crying. I just needed to get this all down on paper. Kind of.
You can comment. Words of support will really help.
Thank you so much for reading this.
Love,
A very tearful Addie
Just a week before, he happily told me he was off to Las Vagas for the week with his mom. Little did we both know one trip to the Las Vagas doctor's office would lead to something tragic that makes us both cry.
Let's rewind a bit back though.
Right when he told us that another one of my friends was joking around saying that he was going to gamble with his mom and loose all the ten bucks Tyler had. I laughed along with them, not worrying about anything that could go wrong.
Tyler is one funny kid. He can be a little nervewracking and a bit stupid sometimes but he's one of my best friends and you can't help but love your friends.
And when you find out that they have a bone disease it just tears you down and breaks your heart to bits.
Tyler said the doctor told him he's not going to make it. In three years he has to either be put down, and I hate the sound of that. I hate it. It makes him sounds like a freakin' dog.
Or he's just going to pass... naturally.
I haven't known Tyler for that long, just a few months. But a really great bond can form in just one day and that's what happened with us. I was standing alone, no one to talk to and I had no friends, which was no surprise but that's not the point.
Tyler came up to me and the first words he said to me were, "Why're you so shy?"
It amused me. Now that I think back on that moment it makes me even more sad because that was before we knew that he had any disease or that he was going to die in three years. That was before we knew that he would never be able to go to college or have a proper job or have a family or any of that. And I cannot believe that I went on these whole seven days worrying about my less important problems. I went on this whole week not giving a crap about what could happen to my friend.
I am so damn selfish.
I can't believe I was actually so excited and happy today.
I feel really guilty about feeling happy today.
Alright. I'm still crying. I just needed to get this all down on paper. Kind of.
You can comment. Words of support will really help.
Thank you so much for reading this.
Love,
A very tearful Addie
67 Comments
im sorry. u and tylers and ur friends and fams are in my prayers :*(
Oh, I'm so sorry, tell him people will love him and that I command him to live the rest of his life to the fullest of his ability.
Aw, Addie!!Huggles That's so sad, I'll pray for him in formtime if you want. And I'll draw him some pictures...
Oh my, this made me cry...You're so sweet Adidas... This is awful...Huggles
Love,
Teagzi
Aww,I'm so sorry.Don't feel sad and selfish,Addie.
Im sorry :( Thats so sad :(
Addie I'm SO sorry... I don't really have any words of advice but I love you and I'll pray for you and your friend.
Oh no! D':
You are not selfish, do you hear me? There is no way that you could've predicted that this would happen. So don't beat yourself up over it! And it's completely normal to feel sad when stuff like this happens. You wouldn't be human if you didn't cry at the news. That is some hard news to swallow, I'm actually crying right now because of it and I don't even know Tyler. :'( but spend the next 3 years to their fullest potential with him. -continue on reply-
If he doesn't have that long, then live life to it's fullest with him, so that even if he misses out on a lot of things, at least he can have some damn wonderful memories when he passes. I know you probably don't need to hear this, but it's my version of comforting. :') you'll both be in my prayers,
~R.J.
Honestly, I couldn't have said it any better than RJVD. Everything written in those comments were perfect.
You're both in my prayers, and you never know--even with the worst of diseases, people exceed doctors' expectations, living longer, or making it their whole life even still. I'm not trying to wrongly get your hopes up, but just enjoy the time you have with him. More smiles than tears will go a long way for both of you.
Addie... Oh, Addie... I'm so sorry... I can't even put it into words... I don't even know what to say and I usually have a hard time shutting up... hugs Addie and hopes she can send my hug to Tyler...
I am bawling, right now. I am so sorry. Dont feel selfishness, how could you know what would happen? You couldnt. Right now, you just need to cry it out, mourn, and talk to him everyday, every single day. Cry with him, laugh with him, remember good times with him. Thats what he needs.
Dont be sad, honey. Yes, this is sad. But guess what? God, just needed another Angel, and Tyler was the perfect match. He is going to be truly happy when he passes, if he passes. How do you he wont? Three years
I will pray for Tyler! I am so sorry! If you need 2 talk 2 some1 im here. gives you a big hug.